Lost In Reality

I miss you

2010-09-10T08:28:00.000-07:00

P.S:- I DO NOT TAKE CREDIT FOR THIS POEM

I ONLY RELATE TO IT...:D

The moment I think about you

I go to another world

A world where you love me too

And where I can never be hurt

The truth is I don’t know what to say

My mind goes completely blank

I have never in my life lost my way

But my heart with your love simply sank

If letting go was a choice

Then I definitely would

But I can't control the strong voice

That's telling me I never should

I have no clue

On how I should let you go

What is it that you do?

That's making me love you so…

Maybe loving you isn’t a mistake

Maybe I can close my eyes and smile

Maybe in your presence my heart wouldn’t break

Maybe I can just dream for a while…

I sometimes wonder if you feel the same

I wonder if you think of me

I sometimes wonder if you silently call my name

I wonder if you'll ever see…

In the beginning I thought it was fake

I didn't think

I'd go this farI thought it was just a mistake

Now I can't stop wondering where you are

The question is do you care?

Do you even know?

Will you always be there?

Will you ever let me go?

If for any reason I cried

Would you take all the pain away?

If for any reason you lied

Would I still want you to stay?

My love for you is way too strong

For me to simply forget

Some people might think it's wrong

But your love is the one thing

I shall never regret.

Reality Check 2

2010-09-10T08:25:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the absence people but i cant promise it wont happen again...:|
school starts tomorrow....:)
I'm so fugging excited....:D
Crap, i'm over the moon....:)
I thought this summer would never end
It's my last year too so i am really excited....:D

As much as i am excited to be back, i cant help but feel a little down
Summer really messed up my head
I'm not sure where i stand with so many people
which may be partly my fault as my friend pointed out "i never talk"

Funny thing is i'm not the shy type
neither am i outspoken. SIGHS!

I guess things would sort themselves out eventually
Right now, i'm just putting all my focus in God and school...:D

Reality Check

2010-08-08T23:17:00.000-07:00

Whatever you do in the secret wud surely come out one day, u myt even be dead self but it would eventualy come out...
A yoruba adage says "asegbe o si, asepamo lo wa" or something along those lines which simply means u can only hide d things u do 4 so long.

Never Ending Circle

2010-07-31T07:00:00.000-07:00

"We Want What We Can't Have, Love Those Who Hurt Us, Hurt Those Who Love Us, We Ignore those Who Adore Us, Adore Those Who Ignore Us....its a never ending circle

A Never Ending Karma, The People You care About Treat You Bad because You Treat Someone else that Cares About You And They do The same To Someone else......When will it End?

He wish SHE knew how HE felt
She is so busy, so many things doing
No time for how are you doing?
All he wants to know is how she is
Check and make sure everything is fine
But his attempts are barely reciprocated

He wish HE knew how SHE felt
She does not say much
And avoids Relevant conversations
All he wants is to know if the feeling is mutual
Just to know if they are on the same page, no need to rush
But she clearly does not care or pretends not to care

He wish he could send her this note
But She already Wrote THIS note For someone else
And the circle Never ends

Lack of Internet

2010-07-31T06:28:00.000-07:00

You never know what you have till its gone.....As cliche as that may sound....the truth
i have been absent due to lack of internet.....Fuck 9ja Internet Fuck Starcomms
oh well the good news is am back even if nobody missed me.

So hopefully my lazylife permitting i should updating a series of post.....
I really missed blogging
No outlet for all my bottled up emotions

Ma binu, Doh

2010-07-12T09:41:00.000-07:00

Hello ppl, I have been MIA. I know, I Apologize. Sorry in all possible languages.

But sorry is a useless word though, wtf does it mean and do?

Who the fuck even came up wit that word?

It does not convey the sincerity/sacarsm of the 'person saying it'

Neither does it mean jack to the 'listener'

What does sorry mean from the guy who just ran your dog over?

What does sorry mean from the maid that left pot on fire and your house went up in flames?

What does sorry mean from the one u gave your heart to but is carrying some1else's child and you don't even know what she looks like naked?

What does sorry mean from the child u labored your all on and comes home kicked out of school for whatever reason?

What does sorry mean from the friend you thought had your back but was the one starting the rumors?

What does sorry mean when your husband tells you he is hiv positive and you could also if not already be infected?

What does sorry mean from a friend that gave u wash down in public because she lost her temper?

What does sorry mean from your drug addicted parent or child?

What does sorry mean from the one who verbally/physically/sexually harassed you?

What does sorry mean from the one who killed your only child?

What does sorry mean from the one who killed your dreams?

With these few questions of mine. I hope I have been able to convince you that sorry is a very useless word. BYE

P.S:- I'm truly and deeply sorry for abandoning this blog for so long :P
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Unreal

2010-07-07T12:59:00.000-07:00

The other day was so unreal
I would never have imagined
Never would have expected
but there i was kissing you

I was in such a daze
Was this really happening
I pinched myself a couple of times to make sure i was awake

So many things i want to say
So many questions to ask
But Silence is my bad habit

It's been two days now
And we have carefully avoided the topic
I guess thats how its going to be

Just a memory
An unreal memory
One i would never forget

Hello

2010-06-19T16:11:00.000-07:00

I have so much i want to blog about
but i have no idea where to start from
so many things in my head
so many things to do.....

church tomorrow,
after praise and worship
all i can think about is sleep...which really sucks
where did my zeal for God go??

No time for lengthy talk today
have to hit the sack or how dem dey talk am
i have to be up early
take care hunnies....:D

Is it cheating if its an ex

2010-06-16T16:29:00.000-07:00

The atmosphere in my house is ridiculous....every1 is being soo cold...it really sucks

Having an interesting convo with sum1 abt cheating....

Which brings me to the stupid question....Is It cheating if its with an ex???? Loool

Now b4 u say I'm silly...hear(read) me out....
I mean its an ex, yall have kissed before and may be even sexed and all dt stuff dat lovers do.....its nutting new....do u feel me naw?? Ok I know I'm really silly

Still chatting.....ttyl....:D
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Restless

2010-06-14T17:09:00.000-07:00

I walk into my dimly lit bathroom
Hot water rushing into the tub
Slide off my cream bath-robe and Tie up my hair.
I look at my slender self in d mirror, firm and curvy, and my attention clamoring flat tummy.
Move close 2 d tub and drop in 2 peach fizz bombs, light up my vanilla lace candles and step into the tub. I stick my bath pillow to the edge and lay back sighing "This is how it should be"

BACK TO REALITY MY FRIEND
I am lying down on ma bed, wit a shirt and pant, tired from nothing, I wish I cud walk in to the bathroom nd shower bt I can't even get up to reach my laptop so am typing on ma bb. I fear looking at the mirror because my round stomach would be der sayin hi back

I am not fat neither am I skinny but I put on a bit of flesh recently which is rather sexy by the way but along with dat came d stomach....:(

All I really want is to cuddle in 'sum1's arms and feel loved

Or maybe want I want is order in my chaotic life

But as I lay on my bed and drift to sleep

All I wish for is a better and brighter Tomorrow...:D
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Chicken or the Egg?

2010-06-14T16:14:00.000-07:00

So i found the answer to the casualty dilemma
THE CHICKEN OR THE EGG??

The answer is obviously the CHICKEN....

why?? Because my bible tells me somewhere in genesis that God made Man
which means Man came Before Fetus, Baby or 'the fusion of the egg and sperm"
therefore the chicken came before the egg

I am not attempting to be funny
this is actually very clear in my head.....

Moreso, God created all the animals and made Man lord over them
it was therefore after this that the chicken laid the egg.....shekena!!!

that was quite random.....i agree
but thats a #fact in my head i have always wanted to share
i feel accomplished
niwaiz off to bed

In the meanwhile check out this blog http://mondayingidi.blogspot.com/ ...... I love...:D

Ekabo; Nno; Sannu..........WELCOME

2010-06-14T09:02:00.000-07:00

I suck at making speeches
None the less i feel the need to welcome you to my blog........
I have started several blogs with different inspirations but something happens and its the end of that chapter
I turned 20 not too long ago, 'that is to say' I am now an adult and this my 'pet project' (for lack of a better phrase)
Anyway i am hoping that i would remain inspired to continue this blog
i'm not promising
hopefully my readers would inspire me to continue

i really do suck at writing to....everything is jumbled up in my mind/head
And i just type......

please ignore typos as i am not d patient type
I hate spell check
but i would be the first to see another person's typo

this is looking good already.....:D